lost without you.

Dewali was just over and i did not have any thing going on in my life as for now,
Not really wondering why it is ....
yesterday i had a very strange dream, i would not want to write it up here but! i was indeed shocked and sad at the same time
later in the evening i got a call from my dad, But! i guess there was nothing wrong back home because my dad was cool and calm.

Sunday i went to church ,we had a guest in the service which dragged the session longer than usual, after theservice i was out when my phone rang, to my deep utter shock my mom at the end of the line telling me about the sad demise of a very dear one
o really dont know how to react at this point on i felt Numbness creeping inside, i looked on but! i have to hear it again to believe it
Life is strange and more stranger than the truth
dragging me back to 4 months behind,
i remember Mr.Saichuana . we had talked about Industrial Sociology and i was sharing with him certain tricks i learned about photography.
we even went on talking about Ferrari and the corresponding 'Fiat' , to why he choose a Fiat car when others were making better cars,

i dont know any more, i was just recovering from the shock with the death of my Grandfather in 2003.
i still cannot come to term, my folks told me about it much later, days after his funeral.
His favorite song 'its all because of you. by 98 Degree' have a very stabbing effect on me till this day.


Today 16th November.
Pi.Chumi, Kuka , Mama and U'Remi
will be praying for you all.....